Hey all. Just an update to let you know I'm still around.

I apologize to everyone whose emails or comments haven't been answered yet...I'm still considering myself on a break, and part of that break for me is to wait to answer all those messages until I'm in the right mood. I do plan on continuing the blog. It's not retired yet. In fact, I've even taken some steps towards getting it going again. But I'm not ready to start yet.

When will I be ready? The problem right now is that there are other areas of my life that need a lot more of my focus for the time being. Also, life has me pretty stressed out right now, and I have a hard time getting in a kinky mindset when I'm not relaxed. So when I'm in a place where I can feel relaxed again, perhaps when I feel like I'm in a more secure place career-wise, I'll start the blog up again.

There's also something else I'd like to talk about briefly. I'm not sure how many of you know, but I have a history of issues with depression/anxiety. I've been on almost every popularly prescribed depression/anxiety med at one point or another, and the problem is they all have their side effects. With any med, its about asking whether the side effects are worth the trade-off of lessened anxiety or depression.

Currently I'm not on any depression/anxiety meds (the negative side-effects just didn't seem worth it to me) and haven't been for quite some time. And I think I'm doing fairly well without them. What I've come to realize, though, is the effect that the meds have possibly had on the blog at different points.

Sometimes side-effects aren't necessarily negative, and with a few meds I've been on, I've experienced an increased libido. In fact, I think that's partly what led to me starting this blog in the first place...being asexual (or kinksexual), having an increased libido and nowhere to direct it meant increased kinky desires, and an increase in a desire to talk about those desires. In hindsight, it also likely led to some risky behavior on my part, not being as safe as I should have with some of my early experiences exploring bondage IRL. Maybe one day I'll go into more detail on that end of things, but not right now.

My point is just that I'm a different person now, and I've been reevaluating what this blog means to me. But as of right now, the plan is still to pick it up again at some point. Just not yet.