Hello, I am known as K-8 (aka "conscious_object"). Here I keep a fetish blog with a (skewed) sense of humor. Contained herein you will find my various random thoughts on my unique fetishes, and interesting finds culled from all over the intarweb, including art by my friends, and sometimes my own art.

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Imagine both your wrists are strapped to a machine. Pens are locked into your hands. And then you're forced to...draw?

Okay, not very kinky. But there has to be some bondage-esque application for this...because why even strap someone's hands into it when you could just have the machine hold the pens itself?



Perhaps if you had someone forced to draw something vaguely humiliating? But what?

Ideas brainstormed so far by "Utsumi" and myself:

- spice girls
- carrot top
- hello kitty
- hello kitty drawing pokemon
- a self-portrait modified to look like a clown
- a self-portrait modified to look like a mime
- a self-portrait modified to be wearing hello kitty items
- sparkly vampires

Or maybe further the bondage theme by being forced to draw a self-portrait modified to look like you're wearing a ball gag? There has to be some sort of kinky potential in this machine.

I have a fascination with certain creature transformations, one of the first ones I noticed being a transformation to catgirl. It's not really an erotic interest / fetish for me, just one of those things I think would be really interesting/cool to experience.



The first time I ever thought about the catgirl thing was upon seeing this episode from the second season of Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles in 1989, called "The Catwoman From Channel Six," where April finds herself slowly turning into one. My seven-year-old self was fascinated by this idea, and how that would feel? What would it feel like to have a tail? What sort of sensation would fur have? Paws? A cat mouth, ears, etc.? And for some reason, that stuck with me.

One thing I've noticed since, is that I have next to zero interest in people transforming into a complete cat (or any other animal). It's that in-between state, of humanoid creature, that seems most interesting to me. Nor do I feel a strong association or desire to be any single particular animal, as those who identify as furries seem to. I'm just fascinated by what it'd feel like to temporarily be transformed into this or that form.

I've also noticed that some of these transformations can have somewhat an erotic appeal for me, if there are the right elements of control and/or humiliation. Which it turned out, to my surprise when I watched this episode again, this had plenty of as well. For example, as she slowly transforms, her speech becomes slightly inhibited by random meows that she can't control (though the voice acting of it is not very good / kind of annoying). A perfectly humiliating loss-of-control. She also appears to begin having trouble walking upright at times.

On top of that, halfway through the episode she runs into Shredder, who just so happens to have a mind-control cat collar on hand to fit her with. The odds, right? I'd like to have seen a little more of her trying to visibly fight the effects of the collar (maybe try to take it off, and discover she's unable to, etc.), but you can't have it all. ;-)

I've uploaded a clip to share of the episode edited down to just the cat parts, but I have to warn you: have you ever watched an old movie or TV show you remember being fond of as a kid, and realized as an adult that it really didn't hold up at all? Yeah, TMNT is very much one of those series. I was such a TMNT fanatic back in the day, but I've discovered that, as an adult, I'm unable to get through a full episode without *something* making me cringe. Bad acting, bad dialogue, bad writing...plenty of all three.

I'm not sure if the following was a regular occurrence, but in this episode it was some terrible stereotyping of women that got me rolling my eyes in particular. For example:

Don: Well, April, how's it feel being human again?

April: Awful! My nails are absolutely ruined from walking around on all fours!

Raph: *laughs* Yep, she's back to being a woman, all right.

Me: *groans*

Or when Shredder tells Bebop and Rocksteady to feed her, and Bebop throws a mouse in. April screams, and presses up against the other side of the cage.

Shredder: You fool! She's still more female than feline!

Me: *bangs head on desk*

Anyways, I've edited those bits out to spare you, but the full episode is easily found on YouTube if you're curious.

Now, enjoy some transmogrifying:



Her kitty-smile at the end of that clip is so cute. ^_^

I'm surprised I'm beating Asudem to this, since she's the one who usually blogs about instances doll-ism or fetish making appearances in the fashion world.

Apparently MAC Cosmetics is trying to bring doll-ism to the mainstream with a new line of Barbie-inspired makeup. I spotted the above image on posters displayed outside while doing some shopping last weekend, and smiled, instantly thinking of Asudem, lol.

How this line will go over with mainstream culture however remains to be seen. In my case, it actually backfired (as amused as I was by the poster images). Before I'd spotted the images I was actually contemplating potentially experimenting with some makeup (I usually don't wear any -- I'm not someone who likes to spend all that much time every morning on their appearance), to see what they might suggest as far as a look or colors or whatever. Except that upon entering the store, I discovered that the theme continued...and all the employees were wearing identical pink glossy lipstick etc.! And as well as it works in the context of a poster with a model heavily airbrushed so as to look almost plastic, on real people it looked less than flattering. (In fact, they looked very much like Rachel in that episode of Friends where she let Ross put her makeup on for her...kind of stereotypically "hooker" look.) Or maybe they just weren't wearing the right clothes and/or didn't have the right hair to go with it, I don't know?

But unlike Asudem, who would be more than happy being permanently transformed into a human doll, the appeal of the whole doll look for me is rooted more in a context erotic humiliation, being so different from who I am and how I see myself in regular daily life (a strong and independent, largely tomboyish woman...then being tranformed into someone's pretty toy ;-))...and as a result, was more inclined to high-tail it out of there before anybody had a chance to ask if I was looking for anything. ;-P

But I suppose at least those of you with an interest in the doll-in-daily-life thing have an excuse to have a professional doll you up and to wear it out in public...at least, 'til the Spring season is over. ;-)

There are two websites for the line, if you want to read more (and/or see more of those two dolled-up models). One is the official Barbie Loves MAC website. The other is a subsection of the official MAC website, with a product description actually includes the line: "a limited edition colour collection specially created for all you living dolls."

A completely random collection of some interesting things I've come across:

- Hypno Vid Clips at LordHypno.com. Click the "My DVD's" link on the left. Then choose either "PG-Rated" or "NOT PG-Rated" (I'd check them both out...they both have good stuff), and click any of the "Preview" links. You'll see a page with a series of photos...but at the top will be links that say "Preview Clip 1," etc. Here, you will find some highly amusing hypno vids. If you're into that sort of thing. I am. :-)

The clips are pretty short, but there's some amusing things in there. Ones I particulary dug were the beginning of Kobe's Preview 1 (made me laugh), Tiffany's Preview 2 (the idea of being frozen in place, and picked up and moved while stiff and rigid), and both of Victoria's (which not only made me laugh, but damn is she good at freezing). Missy's stopwatch (Preview 2) is kind of a cool idea too.

Makes me kinda wish I had a friend to do similar stuff with. ;-D

- Doll-Fetish Blog at Doll's Realm. Came across this site just the other day. I think it's actually the first time I've come across an actual blog about doll stuff. Well, other than my own. Tho mine is only like 10% doll stuff.

And while only about half the entries there interest me all that much, the half that do interest me makes the blog a pretty cool find.

Imagine a version of the mask found here that works like a prosthetic make-up mask. Yeah, Barbie is pretty hokie/cheesy...but I think part of the appeal to me of dollification is the bit of humiliation that'd be involved in being a doll for someone. Being an over-the-top symbol of stereotypical femininity. And maybe being made to up in silly things I'd never normally wear, and playfully teased about being a toy.

Yeah, I have some strange fantasies. Whatever. ;-P

Hello. Yes, I'm still alive. It's been awhile since I've updated. Just haven't been in a super-kinky mood for some time now.

But I do have the occasional short bout of kinky thoughts on occasion. Most of the time this happens at night, when I'm laying in bed. Perhaps because, in that sort of half-asleep state, my defenses have come down enough that I allow myself to indulge in thoughts like that.

Or maybe there's just something about nighttime that makes me lose my mind a little, who knows?

So in an effort to maybe rediscover / work out for myself just what sorts of things get me off, I thought I'd start keeping short little entries on whatever particular fantasy entered my head recently. Or maybe I'm just in the mood to embarrass myself by sharing private thoughts.

( Most Recent Silly Fantasy Scenario )

From a few recent messages on the House Of Gord Yahoo Group, where he relates just what his site is all about:

We are about high tech, beyond the edge, super tight bondage. We are about women who have been enhanced to look even sexier (if that is possible) We are about playing with a lady's own powerful libido and using it against her to produce pleasurable sensations in her form.

We are not about real humiliation or degradation of women, and there is no malice in our play style.

Our women do not give up their personality, they consensually give up their freedom to express it for the duration of a bondage game.

It isn't about mindbending a woman into a subservient chattel, it is more like caging a dangerous tigeress for a fleeting moment of real control. The tigeress is no less dangerous because it is caged, just momentarily controlled. She is still a magnificent beast with a mind of her own.

The stronger she is, mentally/physically, the greater the illusion of finally getting control. I guess my ultimate fantasy image is the bound lady glaring at the bondage master as she tests her bonds. The eye message is,

"DUDE, when I get out of this I'm gonna find the pruning shears and modify your family jewels with extreme predjudice."

Oh course she ends up wet, wrung out, orgasmed out, and in no mood to go looking for the pruning shears whilst in a daze of warm fulfulment.

Gord amuses me. ^_^